Hey it's me again. I've been in a really mushy-mushy mood lately. I've watched tons of diffrent love amvs. I've listned from everything to country to alternitive rock and to R&B...All I can say is that I wish that I could share the emotions I feel from these songs I hear...Don't get me wrong, I like the fact that I'm single. In fact I love it...but there are those moments at night where I lay awake thinking, Will I ever find someone? Is there really someone out there who can have the key to my heart? I don't know to tell you the truth. And that's what scares me.

In life I'm the rational one who thinks relationships are just fleeting moments...but yet my stomach and heart churns when I hear words about love. It's then that masqerade falls off me, I close my eyes and image myself with someone. Who is that person...? Well it's no one particular person really, it's more of a mixture. I can see the face of someone, but yet they have voice of someone else, and the attitude of another person.

I don't know maybe it's just that fact that I'm crazed teenager full of hormones or something... All I can say though is the key to this heart will either be really hard to get (Becuase of the fact that I stubbornly won't admit myself that a) I like the person or b) they like me).Or it will be too easy to get it. Well whatever the way it works, let us hope that it won't get rusted.